My Past, My Future, And My Present Life Story

In "My Present Life Story Essay" I want to tell you a story of my life journey and what lessons I learned. It was in 2004 when my life changes forever when a new me was “born”. My mom and dad always tell me the story of how we came to the United States. My dad decided to come to the United States to have a better life than what we had in Mexico. It was challenging for me at school, but together we went through it. I came to the United States when I was turning five years old. When I started kindergarten, it was different and challenging, I had Spanish classes until my fifth grade. After my parents got divorced, that’s when everything changed. Sometimes I would cry myself to sleep. I was little, but I knew that they were not going to be back together, I only stayed with the memories of our family nights. That's when my grades and focus of the school went low, teachers were helping me with everything they could.

A year passed and my mom got married again and I was better with my school and being happy. I lived with my mom and went to my dad’s house on the weekends. Although, that I lived with my mom, my dad was always in my life and he had always cared about me. If anyone asks me what’s your dad’s name I tell them I have two, Gabriel and Dionicio and a wonderful mom Karina. I was better at school with good grades and my English language was so much better. But, that not last long, my dad and older brother Ismael choose the biggest decision ever. In 2010, my oldest brother Ismael graduated from high school. He wanted to go to a University and get his degree in mechanic. Back then, there was no DACA “Deferred Action for Childhood Arrivals” or many of the universities were not helping immigrants students to continue their future/schooling. Then, he chooses an enormous decision, he chooses to go to Mexico and study over there. Of course, my mom did not approve and she was feeling concern because he couldn't go by himself. So my dad decided to go with him and encourage him on his journey. After they left, my lifestyle, spirit, and energy were a mess. When I enter middle school, I needed my brother and dad support and love. But, I didn’t have it, how I was supposed to do it without them? I always have been a motivated student, I always have good grades, and I have always been a happy girl. But, this time was going to be different. As I started middle school my grades went down. My teachers started to notice “my conduct” but you can call it “my depression”. So, they encouraged me to talk to a counselor and as well I had to be in a group were we seen each other once a week and talk as a group and help each other.

My weekends were lonely and some nights I would cry myself to sleep. Then my English skills went so low and bad. I started to think that English was my public language and Spanish my private language. My dad missed a lot of important dates in my life. I got hospitalized around 2015 because of eating disorders. I wasn't eating well and my health was at risk. My mom found out and took me to the hospital, I was hospitalized around four months. My dad wasn’t here to support me and go through this tough time with me. My dad as well missed important dates of my life, for example, my middle school graduation, sweet 16th, high school graduation, and etc. Time has passed by, and now I’m 18 years old, still without seeing his face. Just with the memory when he left, still can remembering those sunny days that he would pick me up at my mom’s house and took me with him on the weekends. I feel blessed to have my dad in my life. I would be lying if I did not admit that I still cry, I struggle my entire middle school and my freshman year in high school. My dad tried a couple times to come back, but of course, there was no luck. My dad lives in a small place, he’s alone, his only two kids are here in the United States (my older brother Ismael came back). He works every day, in the morning he works as a mechanic, and in the night as a taxi. My dad is a strong person, that he has always cared about his kids and that he always wanted the best for them. I became better at school and I became stronger as a person.

Now, I thank my dad and mom for bringing me to Chicago because of them, I got the opportunity to be at National Louis University and I enjoy being a part of their students. I fought a lot of personal demands in my path, but I won so far. My public language (English) became so much better and easier. As I get older it became easier for me to control my feelings and put aside my family problems to be better at school. I would be lying if I say nothing happened these years. This year my cousin got killed when he was coming to the United States by the people who were going to bring him. It was hard as well, but I control my feeling better and it was last summer, so I was not worrying so much about school. Although, I had a job and I talked to them and they understood me. I have a job that I enjoy! I think because of what I went through as a younger girl it affects me so much. It helps me to find out that my passion is to help other kids. I enjoy working with children's and I see my career and future working as a Bilingual (Spanish) Elementary Teacher.

I owe so much to my dad the person who brought me to a better life, and this life helps me to become a stronger person because of what I went through. I owe even more to the person who has always been here at my side my mom. She has always worked hard for me and supporting in my school journey. I would never have the understanding of what it feels like to really need help, and thus, understand the importance of the people being there with you and that is capable of providing help for you. I owe to all the teachers that help me become a better student. My dad helps me to become, stronger, appreciated, caring and responsible. The world he bought me has introduced me to my highest aspirations and even my career goals.