Obscureness of Where Do I See Myself in 10 Years

What are you going to do next year? Where have you planned to go? Why do you want to go there? Where do you see yourself in 10 years? What does your future look like? Who do you see in your future? I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know. Quite simply put, I DON’T KNOW! I chose to write “Where do you see yourself in 10 years” essay to show everybody that it's okay to just don't know how I see or want to be my future life. 

I don’t know has always been my life plan. To be honest I’ve been more focused on getting to the next step. From pre-primary school to primary school, from primary school to high school. But now I’m here. I’m at THAT stage in my life. The stage that I’ve been dreading. We’re told that we must make decisions that affect our future. But wait before you make that decision pass this test then that one then the next. Because these tests will determine where you live for the next couple years of your life. We’re told now that we’re adults now and we should know what we want. We should know where we want t go. What we want to be. But for someone who only chose what subjects she wants to do 2 years ago, planning the next 4-5 years of my life is quite a big step for me.

To give you perspective, I’m Phoebe from friends when Monica asks her “do you have a plan?”and she replies “I don’t even have a pIa.”In grade 0 we we’re asked what we wanted to be when we’re older some of us said a princess, some of said an astronaut and some of us said a fire fighter. We we’re asked the same question in Grade 7, by then we thought we had a somewhat good idea of what we wanted to do but really we didn’t. Some said a doctor, some still said an astronaut and others said an artist. Ask us now what we want to be and the answers will surely be different.

It is said that as generation Z would’ve gone through 12 different jobs before the age of 30. That’s hard to believe when our unemployment rate is currently sitting at 26.7%. In case you didn’t know we have 56.58 million people in our country which would mean that we currently have over 15 million unemployed people in our country.

To be honest, I’m scared. I’m scared of the unknown. I’m scared because I don’t know what’s going to happen next year. I mean I barely know what I’m going to have for dinner. It’s scary to think about. Deciding what we’re going to do next year is like falling into a dark whole and not know how deep it is or what’s waiting for you at the bottom. Deciding what I want to do is like falling in love, I don’t know what I’m falling into. I don’t know if I’ll be happy with my decision and I don’t know if I’ll stick to my decision.

If we think about it Society decides for us what we will be doing. Society tells you that you should be making money, how you make money doesn’t really matter but fact of the matter is that Money rules our minds, it rules the world. And so the fear is not really if we are going into but rather if we’ll make money from what we want to do.

My mom always tells me that the way you measure success is showing that you’ve done better than your parents as they have done better than their parents. Both my parents came from low income homes. My father’s brother paid for his university tuition and sacrificed his own future for my father. My mother’s mother was once at a point where she wasn’t able to care for her children so she had to send them to an orphanage. Now both my parents are successful in their own fields. I mean I wouldn’t be standing here if they weren’t.

I have dreams just like every single one of you. I have ambitions. So it’s not like I don’t know what I want to do. I know exactly what I want to do. I know exactly where I want to be. I know exactly where I want to end up. But it’s the process of getting there that has me shrugging my shoulders every time someone asks me what I want to do next year. How can I go forward when I don’t know which way I’m facing. – John Lennon.

At this point what I know is what I know and what I don’t know, well I don’t know. In this instance, ignorance is bliss. I am in no rush to know. I am okay with not knowing. Because I know the answer will come eventually. I don’t know how to act my age because I’ve never been this age before-unknown.