Who Are You As a Writer: Personal Experience

Was I born to be a writer? No. Then sure it was my dream to be come a writer. If I wasn’t born to be a writer then it must be my dream because who doesn’t want to be a writer, writing is the best thing any one could do. How could someone not be a writer? Becoming a writer was never something I wanted to do nor wished to do. Even though I believe that any one can sit down and write about everything and anything they wanted to even though that is the case, but still not all people are writers! In who are you as a writer essay I will share my personal experience of being and becoming where I am now. 

Writing is more like an art, when an artist draws a picture there is no doubt about people enjoying the drawings unlike, if someone who’s not an artist. Writing is the same way as art, you must write with joy to give joy and therefore it should be no doubt about what you write. I wasn’t born to be a writer nor it was my dream becoming a writer, but I sure enjoy it.

One of the favorite writing I enjoy is diary writing, I wouldn't say I write them daily, but when I do I could spend hours. The thing that makes Diary writing my most favorite is that I don’t have to worry about people reading it, I feel more comfortable about writing them unlike other writings because then I don’t worry about getting negative feedbacks, spelling and grammar mistakes, or even whether they are entertaining or not. All I do with diary writing is write!.

Besides, my enjoyment I still had different experiences with writing. I can remember every experience I had. As my first school years were where I was born and raised, back in Middle East. I did a lot of writing it wasn't in English though, mostly in Arabic, but I also wrote few in English during English class. Starting from first grade up to my eighth grade year I took six classes each day and for all those classes I did a lot of writing. It was hand writing most of the time expect if it was a computer class then I wouldn't have to do hand writing. Most writings I have done in Arabic during those few years were essays writing, similar of what I have wrote during high school years and colleges in English. Although both essays I wrote in the two different languages were similar topics wise yet, there were a bit of differences, those differences were length based, and typing process. Also essays in Arabic were only maximum of two pages long and writing wasn’t done on a computer it was handwriting unlike English.

Even though I had good experiences with writing, but I as well had bad experiences. Back in 2014 when I first started college taking English 91, I remember when I started the quarter being so excited that I’m finally starting college and working on achieving my future goals well, let me tell you this, all that excitement got vanished. When I started the quarter I did really well by understanding the rules of a higher level writing, but no matter how much effort I put on that Writing class I never got to make my instructor happy. As day by day went I was getting through the English class, working on the first paper taking the process step by step, putting effort into it. My first paper came up not perfect but okay as I remember my instructor gave it a grade around 90’s% I was happy although my happiness didn’t last for too long, along with my confidence in writing . I started working on my second class paper, but this time my paper was never perfect no matter what. Even though I have done everything I been told starting from how to improve my writing skills up to deleting the whole paper and rewrite it again. What happened I kept wondering how could someone starts off with an almost perfect paper the first time and then starts to drop off. You probably starts assuming maybe I was just a terrible writer ever since the start, maybe someone helped me with writing my first paper or even, started not taking writing very serious. I as well assumed that I might not be a good writer after all and maybe my instructor gave me a good score on my first paper, so I won’t give up on writing the other papers. After all the negative feedback I got on my second paper, I have done everything possible to success and improve my writing. During the quarter I wrote about four major paper I struggled because, my instructor rarely happy about my writings but, somehow I maintain a passing level on all of them. Coming to my final writing paper my Instructor gave me a score of 25% out of 100%. The score my instructor gave me was based on two weeks revising. I was totally shocked, I mean how could someone do well almost the whole quarter and then fail at the very last week of the quarter on a such very low grade weird right? Coming to the big picture it turned out it wasn’t about my writing it was all about my instructor didn’t like and thus she didn’t want me to succeed. After failing the class I totally lost confidence in writing. Writing became my enemy or I should say my worst nightmare.

It took me a year to believe in myself again and call my English class failure can be avoided next time. I tried to avoid taking English classes again, until the day that happened and took out my fear about writing and got my hope back on being successful with writing again. That day was when my brother asked me to write a paper, he was a applying for a job requires writing an essay about a random topic you pick. The purpose of the writing was about showing the person’s ability and skills. My brother wasn’t familiar with English writings, he didn’t know how to write in the formal way so, basically his writing would be more as high schools type. As we all know that high school writings were the basic type of writings and it was mostly the easiest ones any one could write. Not only I wanted to help my brother with writing a paper for his job, but it was an opportunity for myself to know what am I as a writer. I still remember how much of fear I was in from writing again. First thing that popped out on my mind how could I success with writing this paper? If I didn’t come to success with my English class writings I don’t think I could come to success with this one too, specially when this writing was different from the writings I have done in English class. I didn’t know who my audience were, will they be impressed? I had so many thoughts some were positive thoughts and some of them were thoughts I tried to scare myself with.

I remember just before I started writing the paper convincing myself. I told myself that the worst thing could happen to me is my paper ending up being thrown away. I put my fear aside and started writing. First thing was, I had to pick a topic and I choose my topic to be about Titanic. I wrote about eight pages with specific details of Titanic history; writing the full paper took me approximately four days between the researches I have done and writing the paper itself. As my brother turned in the paper to his manager, the feedbacks I got then were positive and of course the paper wasn’t the best paper In the world it did have few mistakes like capitalization, too much commas, missed periods, and run on sentences and I was okay with that after all I wasn’t expecting to be awarded by being the best writer or neither I wanted to see my paper to be posted on a website. All I was looking for in the first place when I made the choice to write the paper is someone to tell me “yes, you can write. You have the ability to write all you need is understanding the rules of writing”.